Or all things must end
It was going to be a new beginning. It was going to be what defined me. In the end it was another false dawn and the only solution was a digital fire.
After years of my digital identity being defined as a geek I was ready to move onto the next phase of life, being a parent. Just as though I refused to be 100% pigeon holed before I should have realised that once more I would balk at any classification.
I renamed all my accounts on social media, and even set up new domains. I was ready to begin anew but in the end my life as “chilled parent” was a summer night’s fling as once more I am living my life as Geek Ergo Sum.
So what happened?
Other than confusing some people as to:
- What Chilled Parent meant?
- What I was still doing blogging?
Well it was meant to be clever. Chilled as in:
- Relaxed – because you should try to make parenting less stressful
- Refrigerated – because some of the best drinks to cope with parenting are served cold.
- Scared – because parenting is mostly terrifying.
As to why I was still doing this? That is harder to answer and not something I am sure I have a reason for. The simple version is why not? What else am I doing at night and why not try to eke out a space as a parenting influencer?
That was the reason it had to die. I chose a name with the aim of making something of writing, but that has never been the purpose for me jotting down a few hundred words. The moment you monetise a hobby it becomes a job and I already have one of those, but I struggle for activities to keep me occupied.
I quickly came to the realisation that I was never going to be 100% committed to just being a parent online, in the same way I am not 100% defined by my children in the real world. Yes they take up a substantial part of my life but I am more than just “dad”.
My old writing is what set me on a path to the life I lead now. It was the first thing Mrs G (much better than Mrs CP!) knew about me and survived weddings, house moves and childbirth. Now I’ve come to realise that I’ve not moved onto a new state of being, just evolved.
Chilled Parent never died.
I was never Chilled Parent in the first place.