After breaking the news to Mrs G I was deleting all my old posts, her first reaction was “why have you done that again?”
“Did you read what I wrote yesterday,”, I asked.
“No.” came the response. “I don’t look at your blog anymore as all you do is post old stuff.”
With this clean slate in front of me and the big question is what am I going to write about? The temptation is always there to descend back into my usual rants and perceived slights, but there is also a part of me which feels like I should write about things which interest me. I should begin writing about hobbies, about movies and games, and all the geeky things I intended to.
In the last three years since I was writing regularly I picked up plenty of new interests. I enjoy barbecuing, I’ve discovered I like whiskey. I’ve even started some craft-based hobbies like trying to sew.
My parenting has also come along now I have two sentient children.
All the panics and worries I had before evaporated. I have to educate and inform children who talk back to me, children who are sassy.
Children I’m also aware never asked to be all over social media
I’ve also learnt new things like how I like to work, how to be a better employee. I’ve even gone freelance and started my business.
I’ve even given up the entire Google ecosystem and become an Apple acolyte.
At night I’ve started to read books rather than websites.
Will the angry part of me disappear? I don’t think so. As I sat on the train listening the “tsh tsh” from someone‘s headphones the thought came to my mind was didn’t I write something in 2013 about this?
As I went to find the old post I stopped myself and realised, why don’t you just calm yourself by typing a new rant? Write a new piece that is different but also the same as what I did before.
The whole point of me removing all my old drafts was writing makes me feel better. It’s why I started blogging. It was to find an outlet for my stress and copying and pasting does not ease that.
So let’s get angry and geeky all over again. Maybe Mrs G will read this again?